me and blablabla

well oh well, these past 3 days have been really getting me on my nerves. it just felt like everything was so wrong and not in place- i don't even know what i mean by 'not in place' but it felt like things were not how it was supposed to be and everything just didn't go according to plan which really sucked. but stuff that now, i'm feeling the happy spirit again seeing that tomorrow is tio's birthday YAY! :) geee i can't believe he's turning 13 already, no lil kid anymore i guess though he still acts like one :) can't believe that lil brat is growing so fast and he's almost as tall as me now-fact, i'm short so haha
and hey a few more days makes it the 7th year of us living in indonesia since our departure from aussieland. didn't realize time ticked that fast lol. it feels like 2002 was just yesterday-well not really yesterday but yerh
hmm you know, talking about the past brings out so much memories. both the best and the worst.
is it just me or what but i dunno, talking about the past makes me feel like everyone's moved on while i'm still here walking on the spot. feeling that life for me hasn't changed much. it sounds pathetic but thats whats been going through my head lately and continuously. everyone's a step ahead in with their own business while i'm here still doing the same old shit. relationships? i'm gaining nothing from noone lately cos i can't freakin forget about that loser -.- and so much more that's been bothering my mind. it's not a good feeling i tell ya, all your thoughts seem to scramble and think of things you don't want to. god, enough of the complaining!

BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS. this supercool korean drama series and i am crazy over it. i still can't believe i am haha-the fact that i don't like watching asian drama series and those annoying uneducational indo soap operas and the fact that i didn't want to watch it in the first place. but this one you gotta watch! it's got a good storyline and you pick up new lessons on the way. apart from the storyline, omfg the actors are freakin handsome, kim bum, lee min ho and kim joon. the other guy not included haha (the ones who've watched understand what i mean). eventhough it seems kinda eww for a guy to wear tights, all those weird clothing and how metrosexual they are && the way they sit is eww too haha but they are godamn hot! i've watched this like a hundred times already (lebay mode on) still gonna watch it again tonight on tv haha so i'm outta here now ;)