when we die

eleven o'clock and the weather is burning - just got home from karet bem bem cemetery or graveyard whatever you call it. my mum, aunty and i went to visit my grandpa and grandma's grave (they were burried in the same place) to send prayers before the start of ramadhan, the fasting month. and also cos i'm heading off to bandung tomorrow so maybe it'll be a long time till i can visit their grave again :(

walking through the damp soil on thousands of hectares of land with dead people inside it to me was kinda freaky, even at this time of day. it gave me goosebumps eventhough there was actually nothing to be scared of.

we sat by the grave and prayed for my grandparents. all sorts of thoughts were going in my head. you know like, what are they doing right now? what do they look like? are they ok? what is it like down there? just all sorts of things started to question me. how long are they gonna be in there? aaand well yeah who's next?

only allah knows.

when we die .. well obviously we die! haha stupid :s
then, what do we bring with us when we die? absolutely NOTHING! just our dead body bare naked and pieces of kafan to cover us. no jewelry, no money, no food, no anything.. nothing!
we can see, michael jackson didn't bring his records with him, lady diana didn't take her crown with her, yasser arafat didn't wear his headscarf to the grave. even the greatest didn't bring anything with them.
unbelievable, but true.
and now what are we doing in this world, fellas? sins or deeds? good or evil? take or give? truth or lies? right or wrong?
ask yourself.
honestly, i still can't answer myself.
depends on what you think about life and death.
at least today i know that i gotta catch up on keeping up with my daily prayers and adding a longer list of good deeds. just start with the small things you can do to make a better change, cos you never know when dee eee aay tee aych comes by.