No offense, but

I'm getting fed up with everything here. Well uhm probably, ALMOST everything. The place, the people, the situation and condition, the environment and even the government which I don't quite have anything to do with really. I wanna be somewhere else. A better place, a clearer atmosphere. I'm not implying that I hate my country or anything - I love it actually, having all my friends and family here and there. It's just that this place is just not the place I imagined it to be. I want a better life than this one I have now although I'm grateful that I actually have one. I want things how they used to be back then. Ok I admit, I miss Australia. Who doesn't if you were in my shoes. The place, the people, the friends, the family, the atmosphere, the whole life there. Absolutely different compared to things here which are all messed up and unsolved. I don't blame anyone and no fingers pointed to what's causing me to feel this way. Some understand and a lot might not. I wanna be somewhere other than here and turn things the other way around. God, if only you'd let me. I'm so fed up.

Tentang Papa

Papa. That's what I call the one and only most valuable man that has been in my life since day one.

Physically, Papa berkumis tebal, berotot gahar dan berbetis besar hahaha. Rambutnya dari dulu segitu-gitu aja. Good sense of clothing, prefers shirts and jeans and no serious suits or tuxedos. He's an average height of a man with a surprisingly proportional weight with muscles and abs. Papa nggak pernah bisa gendut dan separah-parahnya gendut, itupun melebar ke samping hanya seinchi dua inchi - hmm ngiri. He loves to excercise and weightlift a couple of kilos everyday. Katanya kalo lagi sakit, alesannya uda lama nggak jogging dan obatnya olahraga. He loves all kinds of sports especially football dan biasanya kalau ada pertandingan seru kayak euro, liga champion, world cup dll, kita selalu nonton bareng sambil ngemil dan ngopi (hiks, kangen)

Papa berwawasan sangaaaat luas, terutama bidang olahraga, sosial, musik dan politik, therefore he's one of the best sources of information that I know of. Papa pinter bergaul sama orang from upper-class, middle-class and lower-class society. Papa suka cerita tentang hal apapun mulai dari detail terkecil sampai yang bisa dibilang nggak penting. Dan kalo lagi jalan-jalan kemanapun, he can be the best guide you'll ever have because he explains everything on the way percisely like a tour guide. Papa adalah orang yang nggak pernah marah, mukul, nyubit, nampar ataupun main fisik atau apapunlah namanya. He also has many special abilites like whistling with his tongue, football juggling and heaps more. He can sing, play the guitar, flute, keyboard and harmonica.

Waktu kecil, setiap hari Papa selalu nganter dan ngegendong gw di punggungnya ke sekolah sampe gw uda cukup tua untuk sadar kalo gw uda nggak pantes lagi digendong. He has always been there for me at all times.

Papa is the most hardworking man with the biggest hardworking spirit. Dari dulu kerja full-time jobs dan double shifts buat menuhin kebutuhan keluarga, and he always buys whatever his children need, want and ask for. Walaupun kerja full-time, he always has spare time for the family and on the weekends we go out to eat or spend quality time with each other. Dia orang yang sangat royal ke siapapun terutama keluarga.

Papa bisa dibilang orang yang nggak sabaran, tapi untuk masalah keluarga, he's number one. Papa orang yang saking banyaknya pengalamannya, harus sambung cerita tiap lagi cerita ke gw dan Tio. Dia orang paling mandiri yang gw kenal. Pantang menyerah, pekerja keras, tangguh dan penyayang. When he has money, he can spoil us like crazy. But when it's the other way around, he'll do his best to occupy our wants and needs in any way he can.

Biarpun papa jarang bilang sayang, I love you atau kata-kata romantis semacamnya ke Mama, Tio ataupun gw, he has his own ways of telling and showing us and we know how big his love is for us and yes we love him from the deepest part of our hearts. Papa selalu ketawa tiap Mama ngelawak and I know how much Papa loves Mama eventhough he rarely expresses it by words. They complete one another and I guess they're mean to be with each other - I hope that one day, I meet a man similar to my dad and have a son just like him. He deeply loves his family, mum, dad, brothers, sisters and friends eventhough he just doesn't express it.

There's just not enough words to describe how much I love my dad and there's nothing big enough to show the world how blessed and grateful I am to have him in my life.



Whenever I think about everything he's done for the family, how he's sacrificed, how he works so hard for us, you know, I start to cry. Gw sedih banget karena gw tau, gw ga bakal bisa ngasih apa yang bokap gw uda kasih ke gw selama ini. Gw juga sadar bokap gw semakin tua. He's soon-to-be 49 and you know that they're getting older and you start to fear all those unwanted feelings. Air mata selalu netes tiap gw keinget hal ini. Gw belum bisa ngasih apapun buat nyenengin dia. Mengingat sekarang bokap gw juga jauh di Sumatera dan ketemu dia paling pas liburan makes it even more intense. It all frightens me to know that one day he won't be here anymore, and I haven't a single thing to make him proud.

Papa, walaupun secara langsung nggak bisa bilang tapi Papa harus tau kalo Tika sayang banget sama Papa. Tika selalu inget kata-kata dan nasehat Papa, yg bikin ketawa, kesel dan juga nangis. Thank you will never be enough for me to say to you, for all the things you've done for me and what I do will never be enough to repay your love in any way. Tika minta maaf kalo Tika pernah bikin Papa sedih, marah atau kecewa. You are the best dad any child could ever have and I'm lucky that I have you. You're a role model I look up to. You're my hero. You're my dad. Tika selalu berdo'a buat Papa sama Mama and I'll never stop my prayers for you. Semoga selalu dilindungi Allah SWT dimanapun dan dalam kondisi apapun. I love you no matter what and I'll do my best to make you happy, Pa. Happy Fathers Day.


I LOVE YOU DAD, TIKA SAYANG BANGEEEET SAMA PAPA <3


(This blog will just never be enough to describe...)

Bandung blast with the best

It had been an awsome past few days. Rayi and Irin came over to Jatinangor. I was extremely happy to see them cos it'd been ages since the last time I met them and actually got to hang out with them, catch up on everything - life, love, uni, gossip and etc. I was hoping that the others could've came but they still had uni in Jakarta and Jogja.
To round it all up, we chilled and had flashback moments at J.co then continued the fun with Sex and The City 2. We got Dwi into watching it because at first he insisted haha. On the way I stopped and stared in front of the Adidas store and went crazy over the F.50 football shoes, cool ass! After the movies, we went to eat at this bakso malang place which was really good. Stayed the night at Dwi's place and really appreciated his and his family's hospitality. Thanks :D Next day caught up with Kujoy and Farley and chilled again at De'risols and later on headed off to see Capoeira practice at ITB and at the same time met up with Kak Intan and Kak Ulan. Had some photos taken by Kak Ulan with her great shots which were hillarious. Had dinner at Dapur Eyang and couldn't stop laughing about lots of silly things. We ended the night strolling around Ciwalk to see some goodies. We then parted and said our see ya laters to Dwi, Kujoy and Farley who stayed in Bandung then headed back with Rayi and Irin to Jatinangor. Can't wait for the upcoming holidays and have a get together again but also with the others :)

Now I've got my final exams starting today till next week. I've had lots of fun this past week and now it's time for serious business, i.e studying hahaha. Hope things go well and the results turn out far from my prediction :D
Bismillahirohmanirohim !

A few shots from Piala Rektor

Shawty's like a melody in my head

So I was wasting my time youtube-ing today and went random searching. Somehow it led me back to Legaci (it always does) hahaha. They had new videos up and I just couldn't get my ears off this cover remake. I love all their videos but this one was just awsome :) ----> CHECK IT OUT HERE

It was only a dream

Last night I had the most wonderful dream. He was there. He who I haven't seen or talked to in ages. He who used to fill up my days and make it all better. He who used to listen and share things with me and vice versa. It all felt so real with his presence talking, chilling and spending quality time with my friends and I. Can't even remember the last time I even mentioned him and last night he came out of nowhere. But as for all good dreams, I wish it was true but no. It was all just a dream, too good to be true. Thanks for coming by and yeah I miss you too :)