TIWYG when you lose composure.

I'm stepping out cos I want to. I don't wanna keep this inside and have myself stuck and running on the spot. I've turned the page and now I've got a clear page to fill in with new things. Life, uni, situations and yes of course, love. My strangled smile, strangled no more.

What meets the eye sometimes stays in the heart. I guess you're different from the rest. It's funny how in a lotta ways you really really seem the same as the main character in my past chapter. It's like seeing a doppelganger... You both have the same interest and genre in music, brains, how youse type, how youse talk, how youse dress, wew wassup with this?
But nah you're special in your own way. I don't expect anything. Just a smile that can brighten up a dull day, perhaps everyday :)

Random stuff

I guess it'd be nice to have a friend to speak to in english through daily basis. I mean, not just by comments, twitter, chat, phonecalls or etc. But an everyday person I get to meet either at uni or wherever, you know, ones that get those inside jokes and hillarious slangs. I'm not with Mum and Dad anymore so that makes things even worse, cos at least with them, we can say a thing or two, take it as practice. One thing for sure is that I've lost my accent due to the lack of verbal actions :s
But idk... It bothers me that when english is used here (most) people tend to think differently towards the real purpose of using it. Just kinda dissapointed that I go to an english based major and it's only used by a few of the teaching staff whilst 90% of it is Indonesian. Way different in UI where they use english as one of their main daily communication. Meh, but fortunately I feel real comfortable here so I cbb to go over those tests again to get into UI anymore haha.
So long for random thoughts!

Twitter effect (SD)

#jamansd first crush gw lopiseni tui :)
#jamansd gw pinter matematika.
#jamansd kicked a guy in his balls cos he was being an ass to my friend.
#jamansd jadi school captain :)
#jamansd ikut ekskul oztag, netball, gardening, swimming sama dance.
#jamansd jadi teacher's pet which was kind of a burden.
#jamansd bikin mudcakes dari lumpur, hiasannya cacing tanah.
#jamansd body super lentur, kayang handstand flip dll kecil! sekarang no comment.
#jamansd benci banget sama nenek sihir yg jaga perpus yg mirip cruella de vil.
#jamansd jatoh dari 30 set tangga, kaki kiri patah, gabisa jalan 3 minggu.
#jamansd nemuin majalah bokep orang jatoh pas lg jalan, terus diancem bakal dibunuh kalo bilang-bilang.
#jamansd my first puppy love :D
#jamansd atlit lari, sekarang bangkotan haha
#jamansd suka pake lipgloss super shiny, ew haha.
#jamansd suka banget baca buku, sekarang hem.
#jamansd koleksi hadiah happy meal ampe bejibun.
#jamansd sebelum berangkat sekolah nonton sailor moon, humphrey, dragonball z, pokemon etc on channel 10.
#jamansd ngewakilin sekolah di cross country district zone.
#jamansd pertama kalinya nambang emas, seru!
#jamansd masih sega, ps1, nintendo dkk dan games kaya lemmings, street fighter dll top banget.
#jamansd suka dititipin di rumah tante ama om.
#jamansd pertama kali ngeliat guru gw main spanish guitar dan gw langsung jatoh cinta sama gitar.
#jamansd first time went to a 'party'.
#jamansd diajak bolos ngaji buat nemenin sepupu main bilyard sama cowonya.
#jamansd pertama kali belajar naik sepeda roda dua sama pogo stick.
#jamansd pas ngaji afalan yg gw afal banyaaaaak banget.
#jamansd doyan tukeran kertas diary.
#jamansd daya inget gw masih bagus.
#jamansd ada guru gw yg akhirnya jd kepala sekolah tingginya 2m lebih, like shaq!
#jamansd beli sepatu sekolah selalu nike dan model gajauh beda. bokap ampe bosen.
#jamansd first catfight!
#jamansd saya tomboy tapi memperhatikan penampilan.
#jamansd kecelakaan dahsyat, kulit pantat kegores ban pas lagi diboncengin naik sepeda kepleset ke ban pas ada polisi tidur, dan sodara gw ga berhenti.
#jamansd rambut klimis, poni dua helai, ponytail.
#jamansd keranjingan boyband sama teen pop singers.
#jamansd paling suka pelajaran spelling and art.
#jamansd kamar penuh poster usher, nelly, lil bow wow haha.
#jamansd was one of the hardest goodbyes in my life.
#jamansd adaptasi jadi anak baru lagi.
#jamansd cengok ga ngerti bahasa 'gaul' haha
#jamansd untung dapet temen yg sama superbaiknya di sd sebelumnya.

and the list will never end...

Twitter effect (TK)

So last night, twitter was filled with flashback hashtags about #jamantk #jamansd #jamansmp anda #jamansma which totally made the timeline full with hillarious flashback moments.
Iseng-iseng ternyata banyak juga hal-hal random yang muncul di otak gw.

(Jaman TK)

#jamantk tiap hari gw dianterin sekolah dipiggy-back bokap di pundaknya.
#jamantk nyokap gw hamil ade gw
#jamantk pipis celana di dalem kelas, embarrasing!
#jamantk main sleeping lions, ketiduran beneran eh ditinggal sekelas ke perpus, bangun-bangun cengok.
#jamantk suka main kejar-kejaran sama anak cowo.
#jamantk tiap hari mau sekolah, rambut didekor dulu sama nyokap.
#jamantk beli es balok panjang 1, potong bagi 2, sebelahnya dibagi ke temen.
#jamantk ulangtahun dirayain di kelas.
#jamantk nangis karena dijemput paling terakhir
#jamantk suka nangkep kupu-kupu di rumah tetangga.
#jamantk pelajaran favorit, mewarnai sama story-telling.
#jamantk punya barbie setumpuk, plus rumah-rumahannya, mobilnya sama si ken juga.
#jamantk pernah nangis jerit-jerit kaya orang kesetanan gara-gara minta beli mcd jam 3 pagi.
#jamantk guru gw jutek.
#jamantk free icecreams every saturday!
#jamantk bekal selalu bread and nutella plus poptops.

and so much more memories hahaha :D

Eid Mubarak!

Selamat Idul Fitri to all us Moslems celebrating it. Eid mubarak! :D Hope everyone gained the essence of this holy month and may Allah always shower us all with blessings each and every day.

To everyone: Taqabalallah minha wa minkum. Minal aidin wal faidzin. Mohon maaf lahir dan batin karena gw pasti punya banyak salah. Semoga bisa ketemu Ramadhan tahun depan bersama keluarga, sanak saudara dan teman-teman sehat walafiat dan panjang umur. Amin!

Intentionally said

Tomorrow's gonna be one of the weirdest and worst lebaran ever by far. Lost grandpa and grandma, closest uncle too, mum and dad not coming home for lebaran which is the worst part, and just the whole different scene. Don't know what I'm feeling right now :| But yes god I'm still blessed and grateful for what you've given me. Grateful that you've still given us, the whole family and I the chance to fulfill our one month duty and celebrate our victory still healthy and full on capable in doing so. Alhamdulillahirabbilalamin. But behind the happiness, I can't express the total sadness in me and all I hope now is that we'll all have the chance to meet again the following year with the better lot :) Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

Put a smile on your face

When you needed me and didn't yet want me, I was there. But now that you want me and need me. I guess we're better of this way. I took my time to think it out. We started off well and we'll end it the same way. I never wanna be a burden towards anybody's life, so please don't make me feel that way. Friends? Yep, till the end! Just hope things will stay the same xox