Thursday, December 24, 2009

Present thoughts 22:03

Empty heart. Confusion. Procrastinating. Envy. Lack of communication. Resolutions. Dilemma. Taj Jackson. Friends. Assignments. Mosquitoes. The I don't understand why questions. Boredom. Blank stares. His readables. Facebook. Parents. Jatinangor. Useless posting. 2010. Savings. Football. Credits. Vulnerable.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

ehmm, confession

So I'm back in Jakarta. Usually I go crazy and all happy when I'm here. But right now it ain't like that anymore. Instead, I kinda miss Jatinangor - Yeah, I do.
You can say I'm here, to see my brother, aunty, uncle and friends. I don't even know if I'll be spending my new year's eve here or not.
As lame as it is in Jatinangor, I kinda like it there now :)

As it ends, we go back

Wow ! I can't believe it's almost the end of 2009 and heading to a start of another new year. Many events - and I mean many as in heaps loads stacks of events - have occured throughout this year.
We go back to January and forward. The last months of the senior year in high school, the last moments of our three year journey. The year where we struggled, studied and prepared ourselves for the final exams. We laughed, we cried, we smiled big time.
2009, The year my grandfather passed away. He promised me a graduation plus a birthday gift, but god took him away before I got to receive it. My 18th birthday. Dad's 48th, Mum's 41st and Tio's 13th. The year my lil nephew, Ali, was diagnosed with leukimia. A few months later, his father passed away - Tragic!
It's the year I graduated from high school, standing on stage, receiving the medal, rose and certificate. The promnight and the events that occured. The year I was accepted in Padjadjaran University. Moving to Bandung and living on my own. The year my parents moved to Palembang and the first time my family living separated from each other.
But throughout this year, I've made many great friends from across the country, I've experienced many new things, learnt and tried out new stuff. Liked, loved and even hated. I realize I've improved in a few things, eventhough still far from what I expect. I learnt how to be more open-minded in handling situations. Responsibility as an individual, daughter, sister, friend and social being. How to deal with the so called uni life. A year of independence, growing up and realizing that there's still a million stairs to get to the place I want to be. The importance of studying hard, working hard and praying eventhough procrastination played its part. Being grateful for what god has given me. Learning how to treat other people better, choosing to look at others below me rather than envying the ones above me - a good way to self-introspect. Deciding what choices I had to take and where it has lead me to. Regretting a lot of things, yet moving on and continuing with life. Choosing the things I wanted to do and leaving what I didn't want to do. This year was full of smiles and laughters. Yet, the amount of salty water that ran down my cheeks were also uncountable. All the backstabbers, friend haters, liars, betrayers and etc, well just forgive and forget, that's one thing I learnt. Oh and I thank Gossip Girl - DVD, for some valuable life lessons this year :)

Gee, I just can't wait to see what 2010 has in store for us all. How life is gonna turn out. Where am I gonna end up, what am I gonna be doing. The family, friends, uni, lovelife - just everything !
Hope next year's gonna be a better year than the past ones.
Eleven days till the countdown, fellas :)

Monday, December 14, 2009

and the clock goes tick tock

it's 2.30am and i can't sleep - so much on my mind .
just finished playing uno cards and monopoly with dhea, adit and isnan - which are all also sleeping over tonight. spent the evening watching duren cup but didn't get to to watch the last match pffft !

three more days to go till the holidays , YEAAA ! but at the same time LOADS OF ASSIGNMENTS to start on -_-

and now i'm multitasking - blogging, facebooking and watching "Freedom Writers" again - for the fourth time already. it's such a great movie that you just don't get bored of .

UPDATE : DONE, FIN


laters,

Monday, December 7, 2009

remember december

HELLLO DECEMBER POSTS , i havnt even posted anything this month.
days just fly by so quick.. my mum and dad have already reached palembang and next week i'm coming back home to jakarta to see my lil bro :) i've got my final term exams on the 4th of january so i guess it's gonna be a two week holiday just for studying (and hanging out of course) hehehehe.
this week has been rounded up ABSOLUTELY FUN ! ( except for the flu, cough, and fever). though i've been lacking of sleep but it's all good cos when you share the late-night with friends, everything feels wayyyy better :)
the duren cup (football) for the english department is being held and last night went there with the girls to watch the matches. got home at 11-ish and had late-night spillouts with nana till 3am. and my eyes are so baggy now hahaha I NEED SLEEP !

mentioning football, the practices have been really enjoying. with all the friendly coaches and seniors. they treat you all the same and that's why it's comfortable to come every mondays and have practice :) but hey hey i miss my sunday football routines with my dad and my lil bro , awwwww. mum and dad called last night and god i miss them SOOOO MUCH.

hmmm, can't wait for the holidays, can't wait to see what tomorrow has in stall for me :)