Friday, November 27, 2009

Distance is a matter

Growing up, distance had always been a big issue in my life.
When I was small, I lived in a different continent, miles away from my grandparents and extended family. At that time, the only way we could communicate was by phone and only be able to hear each other's voices. Sometimes my family would send photos and vice versa. Distance was a matter.

I grew up with many amazing friends - ones who were, are, still and always will be special to me. When it was time to return to homeland, distance was another big issue, why ? Because I had to leave what I had - everything, everyone, the family, the friends, the loved ones and then live miles away from them. Sad it was !
Distance was the only thing that kept us apart.

Now, I've gotta deal with the fact that again, distance is, and is going to be a matter. Me studying in Bandung, a city away from Jakarta, and my parents who are going to be living in another province. Living far away from loved ones for me is hard, but I'm getting used to it - I have to.

Distance might be one of the reasons I don't know all my extended family really well. It also might be the reason why 'we' don't keep in touch as often as we did before, eventhough we have Facebook, Skype, MSN and etc. It's just not the same.

But I've got to the point where I realize that distance has taught me loads of things. The ways of adapting to new environments, the true meaning of friendship and family. It has taught me the steps to become an independent individual for my myself and other people. Now I guess living far away from my parents is going to turn me into a better sister for Tio cos it means I'd have to keep an eye on him more often and not have those one on one tempramental moments anymore lol.

Eventhough the distance is only a two hour, six hour, three day drive or even far as in, on the other the side of the world, make it a reason for you to become a better individual for yourselves and other people. Although for me, still, distance will always be a matter.

Monday, November 23, 2009

how are you jakarta ?

woohoo , 4 days to go till idul adha and i can't wait to get my ass back home :) i've already told my mum to cook the usual delicious homemade cooking just for meee hehehe .
man it's been about a month since the last time i went to jakarta and i'm fully missing everything .
but i guess it's not gonna be as happy as i'm hoping it would because after idul adha my parents are gonna move to palembang - which is across another island (read: heaps far) and this is like wow ! oh man i'm in tears :'( i'm here in jatinangor , my lil bro in jakarta with my aunt and uncle and my parents in palembang ?? geee , still can't imagine how it's gonna be . and saying bye (i mean bye as in take-care-bye) it's one of the hardest things for me to do without salty water running down my cheeks :'(
but again , that's what you call life . you never know what's gonna happen . one day your here , the other day your in a different place . a minute your laughing , the next minute your loaded in tears . the thing is , how do you deal with it .
point is , i just really can't wait to get home :)


laters.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

ten million fireflies

these past weeks i have been fully in love with OWL CITY - FIREFLIES !
ok , at first i was like wth is this song going on about ? oh and the sorta techno kinda beat which i don't usually like . BUT , the second time i heard it on the radio , faaaaar it caught my ears and boy now it's as addictive as chocolate hahaha .
now i am fully listening to this awsome song everyday , forgetting ne-yo and friends for a while hahaha :) it's so relaxing to listen to sleep and accompany you at any time of the day .
you should check it out !


"..leave my door open just a crack. cos i feel like such an insomniac. why do i tire of counting sheep. when i'm far too tired to fall asleep. to ten million fireflies. i'm weird cos i hate goodbyes.."

RECOMMENDED ! :)

Friday, November 13, 2009

a view from the inside

and there they are . the ones who don't want to make an effort , the users , friend-pickers , sweetalkers . the fake , the liars , the people-haters , the gossipers


look on the brightside there are still the ones who share , the ones who try , the real smiles , the humble personalities , the honesty , the ones who don't go blabbering bull about people , the normal thinkers and straight talkers .


how ironic !

Saturday, November 7, 2009

From me to you

To whom it may concern,

From this day forward, i have officially let go of all my feelings for you. I admit it was hard, but i had to. I thank you for all the good times we spent which meant a thousand things to me. I'm not going to delete you out of my life or anything close to that. Just the feelings that were kept for you in that part of me that never understood why. You'll still be the same somebody eventhough things have now changed. No regrets at all. No hard feelings from neither of us, right? As you said, no tears over shitty situations like this. Well, no mean to be melancholy writing this, but i just can't keep it inside.
We both have our own worlds to discover and travel to, and good luck to you on that. I think i'll do just fine. We'll both move along with smiles. Keeping the bond we've always had. You brightened up those dullest days and i thank you in advance. Maybe the mark will never be erased. But i'm sure one day it'll fade as days go by. Here are my thanks and this is my apology. You might never understand why.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

my blablabla's

my what-i-want-to-do and need-to-do list

● acheive a good grade this term
● try out for scolarships
● start saving some money
● make time for football practice
● improve debating skills and competing in an extern uni competition
● get something special for my lil brother
● learn french and be able to speak it
● be able to keep my room clean
● be a better someone
● stop procrastinating
● spend more quality time with the high school buddies
● plan a holiday for the end of term holidays
● make a wish board like the one on oprah
● read more novels
● change my bad habits
● learn how to not sleep like a cow
● more smiles , less frowns
● wake up before 9 everyday
● forget about the past lovelife and move on


hmm the last one seems kinda hard but i gotta move along ..