Sunday, August 30, 2009

uni orientation - fin

fiuh! the three days of orientation has ended .
these past days i've had such a bad sleeping pattern. each night sleeping for only like 2-3 hours having to do the work that the senior mentor gave us. then having to wake up at 4 , heading off to the campus and returning at 5. oh how exhausting (but i payed it off by sleeping a whole day today, yeaaaah)
not to forget, all the workshops we had to listen to - some were good and others were dull and sleepy. we were on our butts for approximately 8 hours each day -.- can you believe how sore my but was then.

oh and the senior mentors.
the angels and the devils as i call them.
the angels (pk) were there ones that helped us out on everything starting from us entering the gate, the work, the group activites and heaps more. my senior mentor was lin-lin and she was veerrrry nice and friendly :)
then the devils (tim disiplin). and why the devils? because they're the seniors who make things harder on you and they're meaaaan. like shouting, checking the things your supposed to bring - and if you don't then theres a consequence for that.
what i don't like about them are their faces and their dirty looks at you , rrr it makes you wanna punch em right in the face.

the whole orientation thing was fun! and it made me want to start it all over again :)
new friends, new campus, new class, new life :)
the last day was the best part. they read out our love and hate letters that we each had to write to a senior mentor as homework. and there was this girl that surprisingly wrote an 8 paged letter to kang izul- the head senior mentor. and she confessed that she wrote it that long because she was half conscious. wtf? half? what've happened if she was full conscious? maybe 20 pages haha :) but thank god they didn't read mine. then to close the show there was this percussion performance which was freakin awsome!

at the end of orientation all the devils let off their masks and we were all shaking hands, laughing and they were all apologizing about the scenario they put on haha they were all angels in the end :)

I LOVE UNPAD FACULTY OF LETTERS ! <3

wow, goodbye orientation and hellooo class.
i'm in class A and first period tomorrow is bahasa indonesia pfftt -.-
am i supposed to be excited that uni officialy starts tomorrow, or not ?
i'll let tomorrow answer that :)

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

better late than wait

usually i don't mind waiting but omg this orientation thing is taking ages. they told us to arrive at 6 but it's now two hours since.
i'm even blogging on the spot since i don't know what else i can do -.- other than talk to the people beside me.
oh and this is the second day of orientation. and waiting was the same story yesterday.
daily, i prefer waiting rather than being late. but waiting this long? better late than wait i guess.

aaand, i am still waiting -.- until god knows when?

Saturday, August 22, 2009

loving the uni life

now playing: jason mraz-make it mine

not the right song for this time of the night. it should be "go sleep everyone, why aren't you asleep at a time like this unless the dreamer is the real you.. "

it's only 10:26pm but it feels like jakarta at 3am, gosh so quiet and cooold. you can actually clearly hear the cicadas rubbing their hind legs. but it's kinda freaky to listen to that until falling asleep - great! now theres a cat that can't stop meowing rrrr. thank god for music :) best company in any situation

now playing: vierra-perih
(god i love this song!)

now what did i do on a saturday morning till night?
i got up at 2:30ish to have sahur and pray subuh at 5ish and went to sleep. woke up so damn early where my eyes were still half shut, half open, half whateverr -.- headed off to citra's at 8 and dropped by kopma otw, to get my unpad shirt.
theee destination: gedebage.
hmm the deal was we were leaving at 9 but blame those freakin effing amazing beautiful voices courtesy youtube (we couldn't take our eyes and ears off gamalie and audrey, jd and edo), we left at 12. haha call that on time huh.

gedebage.
d'ya know what it is?
it's this fishmarket where they sell chicken and vegetables. naah naaah kidding haha :) it's this market in bandung where they sell loads of vintage clothing, casual, formal, leather jackets, jeans.. etc but one exception. it's like factory/store leftovers. buuutt, with very verryy verrryy cheap prices. man, you need skills to bargain and look for the goodies. you might just bump into topshop, polo, country road and heaps more big brands.
i only spent like 100.000 rupiah for 7 outfits. the best bargain was a blue-two pocket-long sleeve for only 5000 rupiah! can you believe that? only 5000! (thats like buying a small bottle of coke man)
haha just the right place for people who are looking for unique tops with the craziest cheapest prices ever. we - danti, citra and i were too tired to continue anymore and anyways danti had to go back to jakarta too so we signed out, drifted away on the green angkot safely home :)

oh and today me and my roomates went to go look for food to break our fast. i chose sunda food today and it was bellisimmoooo :) i am starting to really enjoy the uni life with all these new faces, languages and accents :)

ok now it's 11 and i need es el double eee pee cos i gotta be awake at 3 for another day of sahur.


laters,

Friday, August 21, 2009

hey hey it's ramadhan

wow it's ramadhan already and i'm up just finishing off my noodles for sahur.
hey hey welcome to the fasting month :) mohon maaf lahir batin everyone. may this be the month where we become a better being and increase our ibadah and learn the true essence of ramadhan .

this year is a lil different compared to other years of ramadhan for me. actually not a lil different - but a HUGE different. i'm fasting alooone people! tsk tsk poor me :( i was hoping at least to spend the first 3 days at home sweet home, but i got uni orientation on the 25th so my mama insisted that i should just stay in bandung rather than going back and forth jakarta-bandung. geee, the first ramadhan ever without my family. to be honest i feel sorry for myself and obviously sad! cooking my own food for sahur, eating alone, cos it's too cold to go knock on my friends' doors and eat together, just cbf. brrr freezing assss atm. and breaking my fast without mama's cooking and papa and of course my lil brat (eventhough they call me once every 3-4 hours just to check up how i'm doing, still..)
:( but well, as my parents said, welcome to your new independent life. you chose this path, now this is the first step and you gotta be ready to face the many obstacles coming ahead *sigh* but yes, i gotta face it no matter what.
now, just 3 words.

i miss home.

poof! back to the other big deal.
these past days have been filled with pre-orientation and everything else that has to do with starting off uni. the english departement held a welcoming event called pre-gates on the 20th. it was a good event i must say. met loads of new friends from other parts of indonesia. some quiet, unique, funny, some shy shy cat haha others very loud haha! the whole thing was entertaining, memorable and fun - except for the extremely long intermezzo. the what-you-call-here seniors were godamn extremeley nice people too :)
and it went almost the same today, another gathering but this was the whole faculty of arts/letters. we were divide into groups and given tasks to do for orientation day.
exhausted!

it's been 3 days since i started living alone and i'm starting to getting used to it. but i havn't actually adapted with the cold weather. *flashback* it feels like australia in winter where i used to wear like 6-7 layers of clothes, double socks, beanie and a scarf haha
i'm kinda proud of myself in a way. like taking my own responsibility now. doing everything under my own awareness, aaand being able to wake up in the morning (this is such a great improvement haha)

wait, i'll brb, i need the freezer (read: toilet)

ok, i'm back!
and it's freezing! everything about the toilet is freezing. the door handle, the water, the tiles, the toilet seat, absolutely the whole thing!

meh 4.30am? whaaat? so quick! adzan subuh now. gotta pray and get back to warmthness (read: bed, three pillows and tiger blanket)

headin to citra's at 9 with danti, going to gedebage to look for some goodies :) (hope i wake up on time)


hello saturday & good morning world!
i'm off to pray and i'm off to bed :)

Monday, August 17, 2009

when we die

eleven o'clock and the weather is burning - just got home from karet bem bem cemetery or graveyard whatever you call it. my mum, aunty and i went to visit my grandpa and grandma's grave (they were burried in the same place) to send prayers before the start of ramadhan, the fasting month. and also cos i'm heading off to bandung tomorrow so maybe it'll be a long time till i can visit their grave again :(

walking through the damp soil on thousands of hectares of land with dead people inside it to me was kinda freaky, even at this time of day. it gave me goosebumps eventhough there was actually nothing to be scared of.

we sat by the grave and prayed for my grandparents. all sorts of thoughts were going in my head. you know like, what are they doing right now? what do they look like? are they ok? what is it like down there? just all sorts of things started to question me. how long are they gonna be in there? aaand well yeah who's next?

only allah knows.

when we die .. well obviously we die! haha stupid :s
then, what do we bring with us when we die? absolutely NOTHING! just our dead body bare naked and pieces of kafan to cover us. no jewelry, no money, no food, no anything.. nothing!
we can see, michael jackson didn't bring his records with him, lady diana didn't take her crown with her, yasser arafat didn't wear his headscarf to the grave. even the greatest didn't bring anything with them.
unbelievable, but true.
and now what are we doing in this world, fellas? sins or deeds? good or evil? take or give? truth or lies? right or wrong?
ask yourself.
honestly, i still can't answer myself.
depends on what you think about life and death.
at least today i know that i gotta catch up on keeping up with my daily prayers and adding a longer list of good deeds. just start with the small things you can do to make a better change, cos you never know when dee eee aay tee aych comes by.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

i miss you blog

oh how i've missed blogging so much :) i've been desperate to post an entry just about anything but i havn't had the time to.
and why havn't i had time? hmm there's a trillion zillion reasons which i dunno where to start from and i don't think i'll be able to explain all either?
but let's start off with hello university! haha
ehem, sooo, these past weeks i've been busy dealing with uni. been going back and forth jakarta-bandung, which is umm a 2 hour drive if you take the freeway. so i registered on the 18th and moved all my stuff into my room and got everything cleaned up that day aswell. the room started to look ok but still needed a few touchups just to make it look a lil nicer :)
padjadjaran university.. huge i tell ya! there i met some new friends while waiting in line. very friendly and nice too! :) also had an incident that day, i lost my original school certificates which were bundled up in a folder. i freaked out so bad and tears were almost falling (felt like a dramaqueen at that time haha). i had to search the whole campus and go back after my footsteps to look for it. thank god a nice-smart-kind-hearted-good-looking friendly senior helped out to look for it with me and after like an hour we found it haha :) i can't imagine how my life was gonna be if i never found that folder, wow!

back to jakarta - home sweet home.
3 days to go till i'm really going to live alone, sigh - oh god my eyes are watering - man i'm scared, nervous, sad but also excited and happy at the same time - ok now there's butterflies in my stomache. hmm each day my lil bro starts doing his homework alone and to tell you the truth, i miss teaching him maths :'( oh my big baby boy i am going to fully miss you!
i can't believe i'm gonna spend my first day of fasting ALONE :( omg!

pfft..
buuuuttt good news is.. everyones been doing great at uni i see. uppe has found her knight prince - as she calls him haha - everyones just been getting along with the new world amazingly well. so happy for all you guys.


aaaand for me?
hmm..
we'll see how it goes ;)

Friday, August 7, 2009

00:08 just isn't the right time.

i'm laying in bed right now and it's 00:08. just had a quick bath after finishing cleaning up and packing my books to take to bandung on wednesday. i know you might think i'm nuts doing this at night, but i can't sleep feeling dirty, dusty and messed up eventhough later on, my feet and my whole body don't feel too good cos of the cold water (which i'm kinda feeling right now). but if my dad knew about me taking late night baths, he'll kill me lol.

righty, today was another packing day. yesterday the clothes, aaaand today the books. i really didn't know which books i wanted to take with me- i don't read much though- but in the box, i put in some reading books, history schoolbooks, a few old magazines, qur'an, some islam articles, photo album, dictionaries, important-must-take-with-me books and uhm that was about it i think. packed in some of my CD's and MP3's in the box too. all fitted perfectly well :)
i don't really wanna stuff up my room with things i don't really need but the box was kinda big and everything mentioned went in, just hope it won't take up too much space. cos i still gotta leave space for the cooking and eating equipments rrr so much to bring! which i dunno will fit or not?

some advice for you people out there, DO NOT shower or bathe at this time of the day! it feels good at first but wait and see how your bones react -.- i am feeling it now! and i don't know how to describe it, but it feel like my legs are sore and hot and cold at the same time (sorry for the bad explanation)

before goodnight, just wanna say how much i can't wait till sunday and tuesday to catch up with the girls and everyone else *BIG BIG SMILE* :)

goodnight world!

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

finally found a place

ok, so today i now officially have a place to stay for uni.
a nice room, all neat with tiles, bathroom inside the room, a cozy bed and a nice owner :)
the place was only 100m away from my faculty building and i'm happy with that because no need for unsafe public transportation anymore hehe.
and god i can't believe how hot bandung is now, fuih! and the traffic jams are even worse than jakarta, can't believe it :s
i'm gonna be moving in on the 12th, so i think i gotta make a move and start packing quick and buy all my needs before the day.
oh and i just found out that my cousin stayed in the same dorm as me, what a small world haha.
overall, i'm quite satisfied with the room :)
got back to jakarta in the evening, and god how my head is aching right now!
and hey, yesterday was the 4th of july, i forgot. USA's independence day and wow my 7th year here already, the clock just keeps ticking fast.

uni so soon (and i'm nervous) but, huaaa i miss everybody, wanna catch up with them all, but they're all over the place. some are already in depok, some in jogja, then bandung, the rest in different parts of jakarta. when are we gonna meet again? :'(

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

one step to independency

everyone walks through different lanes to reach their destination, and this is mine.
i have a promise to keep to my parents and i guess it's not going to be easy. at first i wasn't allowed to take my uni in bandung because of the lifestyle that goes around there and how i'm not gonna be living with them, instead rent my own room so yeah i'll be living alone. but i know that anywhere else would be the same, it just depends on me and how i can control myself. and about living alone , that'll be my wake up call and be the start of my independency as an 18 year old.
my parents really trust me this time and all they can do is facilitate me with what i need and send me off with wise words and advice. i know these past times have been hard, but i'll do my best to make them proud. i'll really really try my best to keep my words (because i know at times i won't), but as long as i remeber their advice and how they're struggling to get me there, hopefully it'll all be just fine :) insyallah i'll be a person one day and mark a smile on my family's faces.
i've got more responsibility to handle now. living alone, cooking, washing, cleaning, studying all by myself (and with other new friends later on). gotta be able to control myself from using the credit card they gave me so that i'll be able to eat everyday hahha and that's going to be extremely hard!
well, eventually it's time for me to move ahead another step and hope that i'll reach the top in a matter of time :)
i love you papa, mama and tioooo <3

Saturday, August 1, 2009

JAKARTA.BANDUNG

first of all, ALHAMDULILLAH RABBAL ALAMIIIIINN !
why? because yesterday was the results for snmptn, and gratefully, i passed *BIG GRIN*
yesterday after maghrib, uppe called me to say that the results were already out cos dwi had already seen his but unfortunatley he didn't make it. i went crazy and my heart started to pound quicker than ever cos i was freakin scared and nervous to read mine. the results were supposed to be out at midnight but somehow it was out 5 hours earlier and thank god uppe and dwi texted me. sooo i rushed to see how i did. at first i forgot my exam number so i had to go look for that first and that was nervracking going through piles of paper which at that time my hands were ice ice cold and shaking. found it finally! ok, so there i was in front of the pc, typed in snmptn.ac.id (loading took ageeesss) entered my exam number and haha unbelievable! I PASSED, PEOPLE! I PASSED! my eyes were like woah! but wait wait, i didn't know which uni i passed through, cos there was only the code number on the screen and i didn't have a clue which code that was for. realising that i'd lost the guide book-cos i think i left it scattering somewhere (the one with all the code numbers in it) i called dwi and asked him to read the numbers of my uni choices. i was hoping to get the first choice-english departement of ui-instead i got the english departement of unpad. all these feelings started to mix together, happy, dissapointed, sad, glad, confused and speechless. thanked dwi for the help, called the girls and sent the news.
at first i was all ready to go to uin, but because i got unpad, things changed. at first, my deal with my parents were:
● if i get ui, i'll take it
● if i get unpad, i'll take uin
● if i don't get either of them, then uin it is!
scared at first but we talked things out and finally my mama allowed me to choose bandung (eventhough it was still hard for her to let me go). but, my papa had no problem with me going there cos he knew unpad was better than uin :)

but now that thats all over and i'm allowed to stay in bandung. BUT, the big deal now is leaving home, leaving jakarta :(
i'm happy now i know i'm gonna be living alone and everything, you know getting that feel of being indepent. but the more i keep thinking about it the harder it is to say that its all gonna be just fine. honestly, i'm not really good at doing things on my own, eventhough i know im 18 now but its a new thing for me to live without my parents and tio. i depend a lot on them. will i be able to get through 4 years of my life far away from them (well it does take only 3 hours to get there) but still, i dunno how i'll cope? ya allah, lead me to the best :)


to all my schoolmates,
CONGRATULATIONS FELLOW FRIENDS !
78 SENIOR HIGH-32ND GENERATION (2006-2009)
good job guys :) good luck for the future that awaits you, work hard to gain the best!
to those who havn't passed, dw it's not the end of anything. heads up, big smile and know that there's heaps of ways to reach your goal, whatever way, wherever you are :)
i'm just sooo proud to be a part of this great family :)
i love you full *